Usually when I take time off writing it is because I am overwhelmed with the fuckery around the world, and when I resume writing it tends to be around one of the fuckeries. I was ready to do the same this morning, and lets face it, I would have had a lot to choose from. The world is literally on fire, the seas are full of shite, uk seas anyways, mortgage and interest rates and the Tories doing their utmost best to screw everyone over. A lot to choose from. But then my stoic mind took over. I can write about something negative and go on a prolonged rant or I can analyse my life and look for the positives and be thankful. So I have decided to count my blessings one by one so I can be surprised by what the lord has done.
AJ
She is just perfect. As perfect as toddlers can be sha because omo, toddlers are hardwork. She is perfect for us. When I am having a shitty day I just ask her to give me a hug and I literally feel my dopamine level increasing. She is my little cheat code.
Tiwa
Imagine marrying a dickhead or an idiot. Imagine with the way everything is at the moment and having to experience it with a dickhead. Imagine the world is burning, your mortgage going up by a billion pounds and when you go back home to your bubble you have to inhabit that bubble with a dickhead. The older I get the more I learn about life and the more I appreciate my life partner. Life is a journey filled with different puzzles and I cannot imagine what my life would have been like if I had chosen the wrong partner. Marrying Tiwa is easily the best thing that has ever happened to me. By a long mile. I appreciate her more as time goes by. Without Tiwa there is no AJ to start with, and if I had married a dickhead my child would have been half-dickhead, not the little bundle of joy that is AJ. I struck gold mehn.
Career
"You are well respected around the business Ope" that was my former head of department talking to me before he left. Me wey just dey use grace of God run am? Ok, if you say so. Whatever training I ask for I get, my director rates me, the people I work with rate me so much so that every now and then I want to say "yall know I am just making this up as I go right". People listen to me and its so weird. To be fair, I was well respected in my old job as well but it was just impossible to get excited about metallurgy. I am right where I need to be and I am doing well and I thank God for that.
Health
My life insurance application is under review because apparently I was diagnosed with pulmonary embolism last year. That was news to be because my doctor didn't go into details of what was actually wrong with me when I went to A and E for chest pain last year. When I got the letter from the insurance company, I googled pulmonary embolism and I was on the phone to my gp like
B*** what the fuck?! I had pulmonary embolism???
Yeah, you were on medication for 3 months
Yeah I know, I used the apixaban but I thought that was just...I dont know what I thought, you didnt tell me I had pulmonary embolism
Well you did
So am I cured??
You finished your medication, didn't you?
Thats not what am I saying? Do I still have it? Will it happen again? THIS IS SERIOUS
Do you have any of the symptoms of Pulmonary Embolism?
Well not now...
There you go
Except it is not that straightforward, P.E does not always come with symptoms and one of the symptoms is collapsing suddenly. I am not sure if I am being thankful right now. But I am thankful that I know about it! And I am thankful that my brother in law forced me to go to the hospital that night. Now that I know about it I can do something about it. My gp is about to have a new favourite patient! Talmbout "do you feel breathless" as if thats the only symptoms to look out for.
Finances
I don't have money. But I am thankful that God is able to meet the need of our new mortgage rate making it more of an inconvenience rather than a catastrophic financial situation. I still don't have money though, because everyone is actually mad.
Driving licence
I am thankful that I still have a license. It was touch and go for a minute because I had to go to court for the hearing. But not only did I not get suspended from driving but I overheard the judge say I made the right call to the do the manoeuver I did and I took that as a confirmation of my amazing driving skills.
I have more to be thankful for, like finding joys in little things, my improved FIFA skills, finding stoicism and just having sense in general because one of the saddest thing that can happen to a person in life is to not know that they are daft.
This was fun though. I will try and do it more instead of ranting about how shite the world is.