Things have been pretty okay over the last few months. So much so that I have unlocked a new talent: drawing. Man is so at peace that I started drawing shit...I am not kidding, check em out:
I was shocked. I can draw? Ok then.
I have also been falling asleep on the sofa, as per I am so relaxed that I am dozing off when I lay on the sofa. The fuck? What is going on with my soul. I will tell you what is going on, I left instagram thats what. I have never hidden my contempt for social media, I left twitter a while back (I kept my burner account to keep an eye on arsenal but then Elon came along and that was that) but I struggled to let instagram go. I loved instagram partly because I am vain and like to show off and partly because I am genuinely fond of the people on my timeline. That said though, I just woke up one day possessed by the spirit of Marcus Aurelius said to myself, these niggas is mad. I love em, but they are mad. They are not mad on purpose, and I don't even think they know they are mad, but these niggas is mad. So I uninstalled instagram, and the longer I stayed off, the lighter I felt. I remember a day I caught myself smiling like an idiot and at first I didn't know why until it clicked; my life is quite awesome. Period.
Its alway been awesome, but by the time I see lagbaja having fun in a random sunny location or tamedu having a nice dinner and partying, somewhere deep down my sub conscious is comparing. Then you scroll and you see someone...I don't know post some "inspirational quotes" and I start questioning my own judgement...and then another post, and another post...and the feeling of underlying gloom just becomes normal. And don't get me started on the entrepreneurs and hustlers...
Fuck that, man is sleeping, drawing and watching one piece.
One piece, that is another contributing factor to this peace. It has over a thousand episodes and counting. The number of episodes is the main reason a lot of anime watchers don't want to commit to it and I was like that as well until I saw the life action on Netflix and I liked it so I thought I’d give the anime a try. A few episodes in I realised I was enyoing it and I did the simple maths, I am enjoying it and it has a 1000 episodes = my entertainment is sorted for at least 3 years. "What do you want to watch?" has been banished from my vocabulary. I started watching it in September and I am just on episode 200. While I have been watching one piece, the shows I like are also piling up. Archer, Lower Decks, Rick and Morty, some newcomers that I have added to my watchlist, numerous movies that I would have watched ( I have not been to the cinema in ages!) are piling up. Whenever I am fatigued from one piece I just watch one of my legacy shows. I reckon it will take me a year or so to finish one piece if I follow this process. And because one piece is actually so layered and detailed, it will have an amazing rewatch value, so once I catch up to the latest episode...I am starting all over again. It is such a brilliant plan. The weight of looking for entertainment is no longer there.
Inner peace mehn. The thought of have another child is not overwhelming. That was when I knew I had unlocked another level peace, I can entertain the thought of adding another member to the Alabede clan, because we and I have the mental space to do so. I am aware that I wrote about how sure I was with sticking with one kid very recently, but that was me before stoicism. It will be hard, very hard, the effort required to pull it off is the only thing I am yet to get over, but the payoff, especially as Tiwa put it, "the payoff in the coming years will be massive and if we don't do it, it is something we will regret".
There is the blessing that is A.J has well, going into details of how I am enjoying being her dad at this stage will be over-egging it, but she might be the most awesome person I have ever known.
I am proud of myself mehn, inner peace and inner growth. And one piece.